Bleh...
Okay well... it might not seem like such a big deal but it's been six months since my break up with my girlfriend... and I came forward as telling her I still love her, she told me she still cares about me but is in love with someone else... despite the fact she doesn't think it'll work with them she doesn't think it's fair to be in a relationship with me while she has feelings for someone else. Which I get.. I respect... and she and I are still good friends... and I'm not... I dunno... lying on the ground in a heap crying... but there's this kind of pervasive sadness that's just following me around. I still have this bit of hope in my heart that down the road she'll maybe realize I was good for her... but I dunno... kinda just feeling really alone. And it bites...

I'm sorry to hear that!!!! It'll all work out though. I've got some more to say, but I'm starting class, so I'll hopefully get a chance to type the rest later!!!

I keep hoping that somewhere down the road things will work out between the two of us because she's just... I dunno... so amazing. She said she doesn't see us getting together in the future, but then again she can't see too far into the future... I just wish she'd come around... I miss her so much. Talk to you later steve

Alright so I've got a free moment now...what I wanted to say was I'm kind of in a similar situation. I've got a crush on my best friend who I've known for over six years now, but she has a boyfriend. In fact I could probably say the exact same thing here that you said Which I get.. I respect... and she and I are still good friends... and I'm not... I dunno... lying on the ground in a heap crying... but there's this kind of pervasive sadness that's just following me around. I still have this bit of hope in my heart that down the road she'll maybe realize I was good for her... but I dunno... kinda just feeling really alone. And it bites... For about three weeks her and her bf were fighting, and I told her to break up with him...basically he just wasn't talking to her and getting mad at her for stupid things. They've been dating about three years but he goes through these phases every once-in-a-while. I told her all these reasons why she should break up and move on and she said I was completely right. She doesn't know I like her but I've dropped hints, and I'm waiting for her to realize it, and hopefully break up with her bf who I can tell she's not that into anymore, but I'm not sure telling her I like her would be the best thing. I don't want to make things awkward if she hasn't even considered going out with me before. She says she finally made-up with him, but I still don't think she feels that strongly about him anymore. She's afraid to let go!!

Yeah I get what you mean.

I mean in the sense that she never picks up her phone or answers her emails. She says she cares about me but I'm constantly in pain... I've never told her how much pain she's put me in...

O that makes it even more difficult I'm sure.