Broken Hearted
Okay, well... almost a week ago, my girlfriend dumped me. It's really sucked because as my first year of college draws to a close, I get my heart smashed by someone I met within the first two weeks. She and I really really clicked, the day we met. We got along well, never fought, shared a ton of interests, including both being Buffy academics. But she ended up dumping me because she felt like I was competing with her homework. It sucks, because I wish I could have done things differently. Stopped this ahead of time. Tried to do more work with her. But unfortunately no. She still feels for me though. And I feel for her. And we're still friends. Doesn't change that there is a massive hole in my heart and I have barely eaten and spend at least an hour every day crying my eyes out. It doesn't change that life feels pointless. It doesn't change that I'm sure she was the one. I keep thinking, what if things change next year? What if we spend time as I tutor her in a class I took last year that she's taking next year. What about spending time in martial arts class? What if I invite her over or to the library to study together? And what if then she still cares for me? Could things change? Could she want me back? I don't know what to do. I really don't know what to do.
Okay, well... almost a week ago, my girlfriend dumped me. It's really sucked because as my first year of college draws to a close, I get my heart smashed by someone I met within the first two weeks. She and I really really clicked, the day we met. We got along well, never fought, shared a ton of interests, including both being Buffy academics. But she ended up dumping me because she felt like I was competing with her homework. It sucks, because I wish I could have done things differently. Stopped this ahead of time. Tried to do more work with her. But unfortunately no. She still feels for me though. And I feel for her. And we're still friends. Doesn't change that there is a massive hole in my heart and I have barely eaten and spend at least an hour every day crying my eyes out. It doesn't change that life feels pointless. It doesn't change that I'm sure she was the one. I keep thinking, what if things change next year? What if we spend time as I tutor her in a class I took last year that she's taking next year. What about spending time in martial arts class? What if I invite her over or to the library to study together? And what if then she still cares for me? Could things change? Could she want me back? I don't know what to do. I really don't know what to do.